I’ve been drawing for almost a year and I feel reckless with every pieces I make, noting feels right for me and everyone.

And all the time I’ve been poorly drawing all because of me and my tiring work with life, I never understood what to share in my mind.

I’m tired and lonely and I want to be seen before time struck be before my eyes and prove I’m not a nobody or a person with a purposeless mind. Even though Gio is with me, I feel like I’m missing someone, someone I should look out for in life.

But maybe… should I just let go and move on? Should I let people take my ideas without any notices from me or them? Or just keep letting the world on the other side see me get worse? No… I can’t just let it happen but I wish I knew. I really wish I knew.

I have to push through, push through my pain within my own self. I have to try something new and something different, that I have to face it myself.

And yes, this was an update on me and my inactivity, I wish I have started later than 10 months ago. No need to leave a message of “you got this” or “I can feel the same”, cuz I can figure things out on my own and it’s embarrassing.

To make myself better and you all as well, here are my big bro’s cat. Now some of y’all seen these two, but for new people this what they are